Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Monday, October 14, 2013

Kade's Wiggly Tooth

Kade has had two wiggly teeth for quite some time now. For the past week and a half one of his wiggly teeth was dangling by a thread,  and all I could think of was how he was probably going to swallow it.  Today was the day my brave and fearless Kade lost his very first wiggly tooth!  I am so proud of him.  He was so tough, he didn't make a noise,  move an inch, or shed a single tear. 

What a wonderful mile stone I was able to witness and celebrate with my best little buddy.

Kade wrote a special note to the Tooth Fairy asking for a special surprise in exchange for giving up his tooth.

Get this... The Tooth Fairy wrote him back and even gave him the very special toy he had asked for.  Lucky little love big!

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Koutz 1st Home Sweet Home!

Our New Home!!! I am so excited. It's our new fresh start. Can't wait to move in. It has the best yard, and fruit trees, and the washer and dryer will be in it before we move in!!! 

Kade saw that Brad (our wonderful real estate agent) had an Ipad and had to play it lol!!!

Friday, February 3, 2012


Once there were two women who never knew each other..
One you do not remember, the other you call mother.
Two different lives, shaped to make your one...
One became your guiding star, the other became your sun.

The first gave you life and the second taught you to live it.
The first gave you a need for love, and the second was there to give it.
One gave you a nationality, the other gave you a name.
One gave you a seed of talent, the other gave you an aim.

One gave you emotions, the other calmed your fears.
One saw your first sweet smile, the other dried your tears.
One gave you up ... that's all she could do.
The other prayed for a child and God led her straight to you.

And now you ask me, through your fears, the age old question unanswered throughout the years...
Heredity or environment .. which are you the product of..
Neither, my darling .. neither..
just two different kinds of love. ~Unknown

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Kruel Words

We all know that I have made plenty of mistakes in my life. However normally I am pretty content only hurting myself. A few months ago I made a mistake in the heat of the moment during a family argument. I was hurt and thought I was justified to lash out at my oldest sister. Instead of keeping the drama in my family I chose to publicly bash her for anyone who had access to my blog to read. 

Merri, I love you and am so so so sorry for the hurtful things I said to you. I did not mean them, I was just lashing out. Saying the worst things I could imagine to hurt you, even though they were not true. I know that I have hurt you, and would do about anything to take it back. You have stood by my side through the most difficult things I have had to go through in my life. Impossibly hard things that I never thought I would ever come out of alive anyways. I love having you as a sister, and though we have countless things we don't see eye to eye on I love and cherish you for all of your strengths. In many ways I envy you ! I have always looked up to you Merri. You have an amazing heart, and are great at everything you do. You are an amazingly patient mother who is constantly doing selfless things to keep your 3 little ones happy and active.

Merri I hate living my life without you in it, and I hope you can forgive me. What I did was hurtful, hateful and cruel. I love you, and never want our family to be split like this again. Thanks for always being there for me in my darkest hours. Love and miss you. Lets fix us!